"the key to happiness is never forgetting where you come from" - hannah montana

so i've recently neglected my blog, as you may have noticed, but after having spring break at home and a week to get back into the swing of things, here we are again. my spring break was spent at home this year and it was amazing. there is nothing that can make me giddier than seeing old friends, its like being in my childhood again and i love it. specifically over the break i was able to go spend time with jamah edmonson who was one of my very best friends and is someone that i can still talk to about anything. theres something about being back with old friends that can make you realize who your true friends are. i've noticed that with people from the past that ive spent time with since we all went our separate ways, if you can pick up where you left off and nothings awkward, you know that you have a connection deeper than just going to high school together.

of all the people in the world i love home, i was able to see almost all of them over the break. i saw many people at church, i went out with brea and liza, i was able to see my mom, jonathan and clara, my surrogate father gary spear, and of course i saw jamahlyn! there were so many people i didn't name, but seeing those people really seemed to brighten my week. even though people change its nice to see that a person you have a deep relationship with will love you the same with the changes you've made, and you can look past their changes as well. God calls us to love unconditionally, and it is something that i take for granted. all of the people i named seem to love me unconditionally despite how rude and annoying i can be. i rarely give people the benefit of the doubt when it comes to loving them they way God calls me to. God calls us to something much more personal than what most people live, but i'm really wanting to see what a true loving like God life can be like.

watching the crippled rise

at lipscomb this semester, instead of having the usual tuesday night devo, theyve had a "gospel of sex" series, and to get people to attend they offer chapel credit. of course, seeing as i love skipping actual chapel i still have to go to other things to get my 30 credits, and i actual do enjoy most times the gospel of sex meets.

tonight is no exception, after seeing who went home on the biggest loser i hurried to alumni to sit and listen to the speaker, but everything that he said that involved sex/ sexual sin was nothing i hadn't heard before, but he did say one thing that was amazing to me. he was talking about how when things like death in the family occur, or a faith is completely rocked by something, we have the tendency to become crippled in our faith. its like we are just down on our knees watching the world pass by us without caring about God or what he has in store for us, but after people get back up from being crippled is when you see amazing things start to happen.

when people are new in their faith is another example of this, there is such much passion and fire in them for God that its always inspiring. tonight, Josh Ross made another good point on this topic with saying that its always good to see the crippled walk again, but when the crippled rise and they leap forward, its like they are starting a riot. seeing people who have the ability to mourn but then come up full force into a full love of God and a faith that could even be stronger than it was before helps us to know that when we are down, we can get back up again. many things in life can cripple us, but how amazing is it that God can help us back up. imagine seeing someone who is really crippled one day get up and jump into the air with legs they haven't used in years, and that really started to give me a sense of how amazing it is that God gives us such an ability to fall and his grace will cover us and he will accept us again with loving arms. God is amazing, and in weeks like the one i just finished (6 tests in 8 days) i had forgotten to spend time with God and i had let myself forget how amazing he really is. he really is so good, and i need to try harder not to forget it.